Can’t believe Christmas is right around the corner. This semester was SO hectic, I can’t believe I’m already 75% done. None the less, I’m thankful for the endless support that my family, the boyfriend, friends and sisters has offered me. I would not be here without them! It’s super crazy how I’ve gone through a roller coaster ride in such a short amount of time but, now that I’m reflecting on it I’m glad that I’ve gotten through it all. Thank you <3!
I’m not doing so bad in school after all! I calculated my grades for the semester and I might end up getting 2 A’s if I work hard enough for finals :3! I’m so happy! I guess it’s always better to be surprised from the unexpected rather than expecting something and be disappointed. These past few weeks has opened my eyes, I’ve gotten a lot of encouragement and I’ve definitely improved with studying and being productive. I’m going to continue to work harder and strive for my goals!
Aw, he’s the sweetest, bestest friend anyone can have <3 Thanks for being my encouragement and my hard rock to lean on when I fall.
I’m so close, yet so far. I know I can do it. There’s so many people cheering me on, I can’t give up.
LOL i only hang with the best, psis #3 <3
Buffalo Halloween 2013.
Nothing beats our sisterhood <3
Making my parents proud is a good feeling. Talking to them made my night less miserable.
I really don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’ve hit a big steep hole in my life. Right here, right now, I am completely lost and have no idea what I want to do about this feeling nor do I know how to deal with this problem. So many things run across my mind. Academics, sorority life, future career, success, etc. It’s making me go crazy that I feel insecure; I have no one to turn to because no one knows my life better than my own self. It’s hard. It’s been hard. Hiding my emotions clearly doesn’t do anything. It makes me think like I have failed myself. A straight A student who clearly was so successful, became so dull and dead. I’ve lost a personality. I don’t even know how this happened but I can feel my own self changing. At times, I blame sorority life, and at times I blame no one but myself. Don’t get me wrong, I love my sisters to death. They’re one of a kind and if it wasn’t for my sorority, I would have never encountered wonderful people that I can look up to right now. I don’t even know if it’s jealousy. Jealous that all these girls are on a brighter road than I am. They’re a lot prettier, a lot smarter and ready to lead their own independent life. But, I tell myself I’m not jealous all the time. Jealousy is not my type of thing. I just wish I knew what was going on with my own life right now. Every time I get a bad grade, I brush it off when it clearly bothers me. Maybe I gave up long ago when I first transferred here and started receiving bad grades. Am I in the right university? I was never like this in Brooklyn College. Maybe this university is not the one I should be at as it is too challenging for me or maybe I’m just not as smart as everyone thinks I am. I really just hate myself at this point and I wish I can do something about this uncomfortable feeling. I hope that there will be something that will inspire me and bring me back to life…I’m desperate for an answer..